I Am Amazed!

Oh. My. Gosh. I don’t even know where to start! I guess first I need to say THANK YOU (from the bottom of my heart) to every single person out there who gave me such words of encouragement yesterday. I spent most of my day responding to emails that so many of you sent me with your own stories and your own words of wisdom. I was completely blown away by it all. So many of you had some AMAZING stories to share and it just made me realize that we all struggle and we all recover. Sometimes we learn more about ourselves and in the end we are better for it.

Prior to yesterday, I was sincerely thinking about not blogging anymore. Mainly because I figured that without my marathon running I didn’t have anything to offer you guys. I didn’t really see any value I could bring. My life is not all together that interesting. I don’t have kids, I don’t make gourmet recipes (although some are quite tasty :)), I am not on the verge of getting married, I don’t really do anything special…I am just me. And I struggle with the concept of “me” and the fear of being ordinary. And running made me feel like I wasn’t ordinary and that I had something to offer. Something to bring to the table, something that made me somebody unique. And I figured that without that, why would anyone want to come to my blog to read simply about me.

So many of the emails I got were from readers telling me that if I needed a break then I should take it but please don’t stop the blog. I was floored! I mean really?! I didn’t realize that so many of you didn’t really come to my blog for the running…but more for me. Who I am. Apparently, I have quite the sense of humor and make you guys laugh. A few people told me that my attitude towards Mondays (and my apparent  love for the day) made them smile and not dread Mondays as much. A lot of you said that my positive attitude radiated through my blog and I actually inspired quite a few of you just by being happy. And in the end, I would rather inspire someone through my positive attitude for life than by running. So again THANK YOU for the perspective. Truly.

I also am happy to say that I did contact the ING New York Marathon board and I can defer my entry to next year due to this injury. So that actually makes me very excited because now I feel like I have 15 months to be smart, rehab, and run NYC in 2011. I have a goal again and I feel grounded.

I know it is going to be hard work. I know my recovery is not going to be easy and may at some point even require surgery (although I am going to do everything in my power to avoid that!) But I know I am strong. I know I am a fighter and I know that very rarely do I ever quit. I am tenacious (right Dad?) and I will do this. I will be a better person for this and I will be okay. I also want to take the next few months to understand that without running I am still unique and special. That running is just something I do, but running is not who I am. That will take a lot of work to separate the two. But I feel like my mental healing will be just as (if not more) important than my physical healing. I tried to run today and only made it about 3 miles before the pain started. In an effort to be smart, I stopped and stretched and will be heading to Body Pump at lunch.

Thank you all. I love you all. And I truly hope that I get to meet a lot of you next month at the Healthy Living Summit in Chicago.


73 Responses

  1. I love how you said “running is something I do, not who I am” I LOVE THAT!

    I’m so glad you’re feeling better 🙂 We all love your blog and would miss you! So don’t leave!! 🙂

  2. So glad you were able to defer! It’s always great to have a goal to look forward to. 🙂

  3. Isn’t the blogging community a wonderfully supportive place? I’m so glad you are not going to stop blogging, you have so much to share with all of us. And now you can share your road to recovery. I look forward to reading many more posts from you! 🙂

  4. Yay!!! So glad you’re not going to stop blogging…we come here for much more than just running! I come pretty much for the pictures of your cute hubby.


  5. Happy to hear your revelations. You are way more than a runner. You are a beautiful person and I know I would certainly miss you.

  6. So glad you see that running doesn’t make you who you are. I love your blog and you know I’m as much a runner as you are monkey. I just love reading what you have to say, not only what you do!

  7. Kelly, I’m so proud of you and your attitude towards things now. Knowing you have something to look forward to will definitely make things easier.
    I love reading your blog and your interesting facts! I would be super bummed if you disappeared! But I’m glad to see you’re sticking with us, and I’m more than ecstatic to be meeting you next month at HLS! 😀

  8. Maybe this will be the thing that makes you rediscover all of the things that make you special….other than running. So glad you were able to defer the NYC entry.

  9. You are definitely so much more than a runner! Don’t stop blogging!

  10. Oh that is great news about being able to defer the entry. I think you being you is what is most interesting about the blog. It’s not about the marathon or food, etc. I think people feel comfortable with you. You’re honest, open, and you inspire.

  11. So glad your frown is upside down now. Listen, take breaks do your thing, but to your point we all love you because you’re you. I love reading about your training, but I also enjoy the little nuggets of you that come along with it.

    Toast you soon at HLS!!!

  12. That’s AWESOME you can do it next year!! It’s always good to have something to look forward to, even if it’s far away.

    I know the feeling about what to blog about if it’s not training…..hahaa.

    Now we can “not run” together at HLS!! 🙂

  13. So glad you were able to defer!! That’s such great news. And I’m happy you got such an outpouring of support from the blogging community. Definitely a wonderful thing about it. 🙂

    Blogs are wonderful not just because of what the person does, but because of WHO they are. Everyone brings their own unique perspective to the table. So whether you’re talking about running or not, you still have a lot to offer! Glad you’re going to keep on blogging.

  14. You are far from ordinary Kelly (in a good way).
    Glad you’re not going to stop blogging! I would miss you.

  15. So sorry to hear about this but it could be a great opportunity. Use this time to explore other hobbies and see what else you love. You can still run but maybe you like to sew/garden/read/swim too? Opportunities abound…

  16. There’s that sunshine we like to see! Good for you Kelly! Stay positive! We love you for you…not the running. I am so glad you are stopping any of it. I want to see you get what you want! Have a great day!

  17. I could not be more excited to meet you at HLS! Girl- you know I’m going to be seeking you out… :p

    And I agree with everyone again- when it comes down to it, we really really just like YOU. 🙂

    Have a good day! And next year when you kick some ING marathon ass, it’s going to be such a sweet victory!

  18. Oh my goodness- you are SO much MORE than just running. Honestly I never really came to your blog to hear about running, of course I love it & think it’s great..but it’s SO much more that that– I love just hearing about you. & yes, EVERY Monday I do smile because I think of how you really do love Mondays & it just makes me love …or rather try to like…them a bit more 😀 & I love how you tell us about your recipes- they are delicious & about how you can’t keep plants..because I can totally relate.
    SO HAPPY that you can defer your entry, that’s AWESOME news.
    Keep on smiling because you are great!! xoxo

  19. I am so glad that something was able to put a smile on your face! Now we just need to get you back to the coffee drinking! I think you’ll be amazed to find what a difference there will be in your running this time next year and you will KILL IT in NYC in 2011! Until then, we are going to enjoy you being you because that is why we come here every day, not to marvel at how fast you run (well, maybe I do that a little bit too)

  20. Aww, what a sweet post! I still need to go back and read the one it’s in response to-been busy the past couple days and am behind in blog reading. I definitely don’t want to see you stop blogging. You’re funny, witty, real and inspiring, and you deserve to be able to type what you want to. People will read-heck, they have already proven that to you. Keep your head up and keep going. You will get to run the marathon after you heal..it’s just a bump in the road and you will conquer it. You might even get to try new activities during the time off.

    Have a great day!

  21. oh my gosh i would die if you stopped blogging! you are definitely SO much more than running…you’re an incredible cook, a wonderful encouragement, a loving wife, a friend, and a rolemodel. i’m proud of you for THOSE things, and not the running. you’re awesome!

  22. I also feel like I learn a lot from your blog on just simply being HEALTHY. I love the informative articles and information you post and the discussions that you create. Don’t go anywhere!

  23. I love all of your posts so much and find them so informative… I’d truly be sad if you stopped blogging. You definitely are so much more than a runner and I’m happy that you know that too!

  24. I am so glad you are not going to stop blogging! I look forward to your posts everyday 🙂 I know that I am having a bad day, your positivity will make it bearable!

  25. I’m so happy to hear about the deferral for NYC – and that you are going to keep blogging! I feel like a learn so much from you everyday. I would miss your posts too much!

    I am in a desperate attempt to get myself to HLS! If you hear of any tickets floating around, let me know! We need to meet 🙂

  26. I never once came to your blog for the running, I come for a little daily dose of Kelly! Smiles, exclamation points and positive energy!

    As for not blogging because who wants to read about “just you”?!?! Um, I do!! And have you read my blog? I am just me too. Nothing special, but I blog, so eh. 😀

  27. Kel, I think you are interesting, funny, and animated, even in your writing 🙂 I hang out with you in real life and love every minute. And there is no running involved there.

  28. OMG, I never would have thought that you were considering ending this blog! You absolutely, positively cannot do that! I’m not a real runner and that’s not why I read your blog. I love your nutrition/health tidbits and your quirky, cute writing style, not to mention the fact that you’re an absolute doll! I’m glad you’re realizing that through everyone’s comments and continue to move on with your new goal and perspective! 🙂

  29. I don’t know if I missed it yesterday, but I didn’t realize you were thinking of altogether stopping the blog! I’ve loved your running stories and whatnot, but you always have great little snippets of health news or funny posts and stories. You could blog about the recovery too because pretty much every athlete can relate to that too! I hope you keep going with the blog though.

    I won’t be at HLS buuuut I should be living in NYC by the end of this year… so when you come for the marathon?? Haha, it’s so far away but I’m sure I’ll still be reading blogs/running/intermittently writing my own blog..

    Isn’t the blog world great for lifting spirits??

  30. “That running is just something I do, but running is not who I am. ” That’s good. I need to remind myself of that.

  31. Hey Kelly! I missed yesterdays post but just caught up and let me tell you..you’re not ordinary girlie! I enjoy reading about your life not just your running. It was so cool to learn about your catering! Keep up the blogging girlie! I’m so glad you were able to defer to next year to give your body the time it needs. XOXO

  32. Kelly, I’m just catching up on your last few posts…Wow, girl. You are SO strong to come out and be brutally honest about your struggles–to open your heart to us! I have never ever read your blog solely for the running (although the motivation to log a few miles here and there has been an extra perk!), but rather for your inspiring words about life! And I’m also SO grateful for the advice you offered me when I realized I have a wheat allergy! AND your recipes ROCK! Your enchilada casserole is phenom, seriously!

    In other words, you can sit on your bum, swim, run, or drink pina coladas all day and I’ll STILL be stopping by. 🙂 Love you! xoxo

  33. I’m happy that you were able to defer your entry, and that we could help you feel better. That’s the best party about the blogging community, so much support!

  34. I am behind on blog reading, and am going to go back and read yesterday’s post. I didn’t realize you were going to the Healthy Living Summit – can’t wait to meet you!!

  35. no no no you can’t leave the blog!

    heck, I read your blog and dont even pay attention to much of the running anymore. I read bc of YOU. I like YOU :).

  36. You will do great next year, girl!! 🙂

  37. Kelly – So glad you’re not going to stop blogging. As you can see from ALL the comments – you are inspiring girls across the country. And it’s clearly not just because you are an awesome runner. After losing someone very close to me awhile back, I struggled to get back into a “happy mode” – then stumbled upon your blog and realized that life is not our circumstances, but it’s what we make out of our circumstances. Your upbeat and positive attitude is a constant reminder of just how incredible being alive is!! Don’t ever change. You are anything but ordinary!!

  38. This is why the blog community is the best!! 🙂

    – Beth @ http://www.DiningAndDishing.com

  39. I hesitated to say it yesterday, but I definitely do not come to your blog for the running part of it… there is SO much more to you than that!! You are such an inspiration when it comes to healthy living and you are an awesome friend!! So glad that we can all be there for you in some small way to help you get through this bump in the road. Because that’s all it is, just a little bump! 😉

    Have a great day!! 🙂

  40. While you have inspired me to pick my running back up, it’s certainly not the reason why I visit your blog. (Your running times always make me crazy jealous anyway!) I think every blogger thinks about quitting–myself included–but please please PLEASE don’t! Take some breaks, maybe only post once a day, but don’t stop. Your positivity is infectious and it certainly has made an impact on me! See in NYC next year! Woot!

  41. I want to chime in here! I would be SO disappointed if you stopped blogging! While I enjoy the running stuff, it is NOT what keeps me coming back. What keeps me coming back is your practical advice, your wonderful recipes, and your overall motivation and encouragement!

  42. I’m so glad you’re going to continue to blog! I’m incredibly ordinary, but I’m okay with it 🙂

    That’s great that they let you defer!

  43. I just read your post from yesterday & I’m really sorry about what happened. I rally hope you make a solid, speedy recovery 🙂

    “That running is just something I do, but running is not who I am” <– so glad you said that & it's so true. Keep blogging!!

  44. Believe me, people read a blog because they love the reader…not what the reader does. People love you, 20 miles or 2 miles or no miles a day. They (we!) want you and your radiating happiness through your writing 🙂

  45. Love the writer* oops!

  46. you have a lot to offer us besides running. love hearing about your life-you are not boring or ordinary!

  47. HECK YES YOU ARE STRONG!!! i love waht you said that running is something you do, not who you are…wonderfully put!!!!

  48. Just another reminder that I love you. The end.

  49. What a heartfelt post, love it! That is how all blogs should be, from the heart, from you and what you are thinking and wanting……..I have thought many times of stopping my blog but then realized after posting about it and getting postive comments back that I don’t have to do that………that it is ok to take a break for a day or two or more and that if I like blogging I should keep it up as it is 1st and formost rewarding for me (you) and that is what really matters.

  50. i am so glad that you are going to keep blogging! you are so knowledgable about exercise and nutrition. your kind personality shows through in your posts and i love reading about what you and keith are up to! and congrats on getting the marathon nod for next year!

  51. We LOVE you!!! You are extraordinary, even without the running!! A lot of your posts that I am so interested aren’t even about the running!!!

    PS–gave you a blogger award to prove it 😉


  52. I just found you blog for the first time today… I have been where you are now, about 3 years ago I tore my meniscus in half in a spin class, was feeling great and in 0.00008 seconds it all changed. I have never felt such pain, after months of trying to avoid surgery and seeing multiple doctors I had to give in. Rehab was one of the most difficult and frustrating things I have ever done. Just walking seem impossible, much less running. I would get frustrated, and was without my usual release of running/biking. Now I’m training for my first post-op half marathon! Be grateful that you can still run even if its just a few miles, you will get thru this!!

  53. Holy smokes – I’ve missed out on alot. First of all – glad you are staying – but do it for YOU and know that YOU have so much to offer and are more than just a physical body. I could totally relate to the things you were talking about – years ago running was my identity and all I had…without it, I was nobody…still am nobody….still have no idea who I am or what I have to offer.

    Honestly, it feels like the hardest thing at the time and impossible to get over…but you will. Right now? I can’t even picture running…that’s sad …but it just goes to show that anyone can change… not that that will happen to you at all!! your a different story altogether!

    Honestly I never used to read your blog for the running aspect anyhow – I just enjoyed reading about your usual life and Keith and your work and the articles you’d post/write about.

    You ARE a wrtier too Kell! Anyways, be grateful you can exercise at all – and be grateful you still have the drive. I go home at the end of the day…and just sit…and cry alittle …I don’t have it in me to get up in the morning let alone run…so be grateful you still have YOU and your mind…

    don’t let Depression or someone else ever take that away from you.

    Those are things that will break your heart.

    Peace and Love.

  54. So glad they let you defer for a year. You will rok it next year. You are a definate asset to the blog world and you would be totally missed if you left!

  55. Hi Kelly
    What you say touches on what I have experienced for a long time.
    And people just don’t seem to understand. Not at all.
    Like you, I was once a “good” runner. And potential for more. I had dreams. I loved it. It was my identity I suppose.
    I lost that. In May 2009 I stopped all running and activity because my body could not do it – burnt, crawling, lethargic, dead.
    Since then….nothing. Nothing.
    Some people say they “just don’t do it”.
    Well, I PHYSICALLY cannot do it. I wish people would value their health just for a lovely walk…how nice that is to appreciate!
    I don’t even have the option anymore. I feel lost…for over a year I have tried to accept…tears, worry, depression.
    No identity. Feeling lost. Feeling I have “nothing” that makes me unique, different, valuable, impressive, etc…
    so now its a battle daily to try to just be content with life….as is.
    You are so fortunate for all you have. Never negate that.

  56. I know it is hard to patient, but you were right when you said NYC isn’t going anywhere. You might not conquer it now, but your time will come 🙂

  57. Oh, no!!! BIG HUGS, Kelly!

    “I don’t really do anything special…I am just me.” Girlfriend, just you? We love you! You’re far from ordinary. I will read Healthy Living with Kelly no matter what kind of exercise you do.

    You’re a tough cookie with a great ‘tude. 🙂

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