I am still here…

Hey everyone. Yes, I am still here. I had a ROUGH week. It became apparent that I was allergic to the pain medication. I was severely nauseous (and I mean SEVERELY) and it made my skin itch so badly that I thought I was going to scrape all my skin off my body. So pain medication stopped and the actual pain set in. Lovely. I then proceeded to develop insomnia only sleeping about 2 to 4 hours a night. Needless to say I have seen my fair share if infomercials. Did you know that you can have rock hard 6 pack abs by using the Ab Shaker Belt? Hum…who knew? :)

Things are getting a little better. The pain is lessening and the nausea only lasts a few hours each morning. I actually convinced myself I was pregnant due to waves of nausea but a pregnancy test quickly proved me wrong. Thank you Lord! I have been to two PT sessions already and the exercises are excoriating but worth it. It has been determined that my body produces close to no scar tissue so that has helped with the swelling but the downside is that it makes the possibility of retearing that tendon greater and therefore my recovery may take longer than originally expected.

I feel like there are stages of grief no matter how big or small a tragedy may be. I will admit that this has been hard on me and on my family. Keith has been amazing but he is tired. He works, he cooks, he cleans, and he takes care of me. My mood swings have been out of control and yet he just rolls with it. He has loved me every step of this process, he never complains and when I cry he just holds my hand, rubs my head and tells me that he will always be here and that I am doing great. He cheers when I can move my fingers and makes me feel like I have just completed one of those long ago 10 mile runs.

My entire hand has been affected and actually the only finger that actually works with normalcy is the thumb. I am in a splint that stabilizes my entire hand and wrist and I am only allowed to take the splint off when I do my PT exercises. Everything takes twice as long with one arm. Making oatmeal takes sufficiently more time. I need multiple trips the table. Take bowl to kitchen table. Come back for spoon. Come back for coffee. Go back for a napkin, etc…you get the idea. I have now decided that sometimes eating standing up in my kitchen isn’t so bad.

Simple everyday things I took for granted:

  • Tying my shoes
  • Putting my hair in a pony-tail
  • Spreading PB on a piece of bread
  • Shaving my underarms
  • Putting on a bra
  • Grocery Shopping and pushing/steering a cart
  • Blogging

And the list could go on and on and on. All of those things are a lot harder or actually impossible to do with only one hand. I have said before and I will say it again: I am humbled.

I want to tell you all thank you from the bottom of my heart. My house is a florist (thanks for all the flowers) and the cards (Anna and Christina…both made me smile) and for everyone that cooked for us. Oh my gosh…having meals made has been a lifesaver. Special thanks to Hilary and Lindsay for running errands for me and Keith and just basically being willing to help out in any way. Thank you. And Hilary…just so you know when I cry, Keith always says, “I need Hilary here to make you smile.” You do girl! :)

I also need to especially thank Katie and Sarena. The daily emails have been awesome. I know they aren’t always cheery and you two have definitely heard the worst of it, but I feel so grateful to have two people whom I have never formally met be such amazing friends. Thank you. Thank you.

Okay well I need to jump off as my right hand/wrist literally ache from one-handed typing. For everyone who went to HLS this weekend, I hope it was awesome and I am so sad I couldn’t be there to meet so many of you in person. But I am sure I will be reading update after update for a few days. :)

1 week down…11 to go! :)

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49 Responses

  1. You do have an awesome husband!! But you would do the same for him. thats why you guys are the perfect match. I am here for you whenever you need me. :)

  2. Sounds like you have an awesome husband and some awesome friends. I didn’t know you knew someone from the blog world in person – Hiliary? LOL.

    Yeah, our hands do alot for for us don’t they. We don’t even think about it. Hope you got your pain meds sorted out. I once took a “bad” medication and woke up with my face and hands and legs swollen to the high Heavans. Yikes! Did they give you something else?

    Read a few books girls – what did you pick up ??

    1 week down – remember that ;)

    • Yes, I have known Hilary for almost 6 years. She is my best friend and her husband and my husband are good friends too. We love them!

      I have read 1 book: “Are You There Vodka, It Is Me Chelsey?” and I am about half way finished with a Jennifer Werner book called, “Best Friends Forever.”

      • I have both those here to read! But haven’t gotten around to it yet…does anyone ever find that the more choice you have, the more you can’t decide where to begin?…and in my case, then, not beginning…I’m immobilized by indecisiveness!! :)

  3. Awww. Again, I’m so sorry you’re in such pain. :( But thankfully Keith is treating you well, and I’m glad all the support has been cheering you up. :) *hugs*

  4. Ohhh, Kelly– the allergic reaction sounds horrible! Actually, it all sounds pretty horrible…but you’re through the worst of it!!! It sounds like Keith has been taking great care of you!! I’m glad that my card made you smile…please, please, please let me know if there is anything I can do (from 3,000 miles away :-) )

  5. oh sweetie…i am so proud of you for hanging in there! you are such a strong and awesome woman! and i’m also proud of keith for being there for you every step of the way, loving and comforting. such a great husband for a wonderful woman :)

  6. You are so sweet! Blog or not you ARE a great friend! You are such a strong person and you are doing such a great job. It is tough to be humbled, but we all take things for granted. No one expects something like this to happen. You have a great partner there to help you out and that makes such a difference. I love ya lady and if you need anything, I am always here…good or bad! I hope you have a good day sweetie!

  7. Oh girl I am so sorry you are going through this and how tough it has been on you. :( I will say some prayers and really hope that you get some good news and good days your way soon! <3

  8. I am so glad to hear you on the road to recovery. It’s wonderful with all of the support you are getting from family and friends. You are in our prayers and everyday will get better! ~ Take care….

  9. Hey sweetie – I just want nothing more than to give you a hug. What an amazing hubby you have. I can definitely see this being like a death and having the need to grieve. You have such an amazing support system surrounding you.

  10. Great to hear from you! I think about you all the time. Glad this week is behind you – hope this next one is easier. Hang in there.

  11. Glad to hear an update! It sounds like Keith is AMAZING and is doing the best he can. Good luck Kelly!

  12. Tell him to call. I’ll be right over :)

  13. Kelly – I’m glad the pain is starting to lessen a bit, but it sounds like you’ve really been through the ringer. Keith sounds like an amazing man and husband and I’m so glad you have him in your life. Despite the pain you are in, you sound like the old Kelly and I’m glad. There is a light at the end of this loooong tunnel. Wishing you a super speedy and bearable recovery. And sending you lots of good healing thoughts.

  14. BIG HUGS! I think you are handling this all really well. Keith seems to be taking things in stride, too. You two are a strong, solid couple. Reading that list of things that are incredibly difficult/impossible really hits home how little you can do. Keep hanging tough!

  15. Sarena and Katie were the ones who introduced me to your blog, and I am so glad they did! They are two of my most favoritist (yes, I wrote it) bloggers ever.

    I’m so glad you are making it through, I can only imagine how frustrating it must be. Your husband is awesome :)

  16. Sorry you are so frustrated, and I can understand the mood swings. I’m a newer reader, but I’m guessing Keith is your husband? boyfriend? So nice of him to take care of you.

  17. Oh Kelly! I have been thinking about you every day! I’m glad to hear that things are slowly getting better! Keith, you are AMAZING!

  18. I hate how difficult this is for you. All the things having only one hand limits frustrates you which is completely understandable. How awful to face that rollercoaster of emotions every day. Thank goodness for wonderful people to support you. Hugs!

  19. Oh my gosh Kelly, I’m sorry you’re having such an awful time with this all! I really wish I could give you a big hug! :(

    It does sound like you’re still kicking, though- and you are such a strong and determined girl…. I’m thinking about you and your soon to be strong recovery!

  20. Oh…and your 11 weeks thing – LOL …I’m doing the same thing, but with months!! I hate the place I moved to and job – but am going to just have to roll with it and not dwell…but I’ll try to stick it out for year…so yeah, 11 more months!!

  21. Oh, Kelly! I am truly sorry you’re going through this. At least you have a fab hub to take care of you. Hugs to you!!! xoxo

  22. That’s what friends are for, Kelly.

    I think it is safe to say that a lot of us in the blog world have also been humbled by this. Things I took for granted: Kelly’s cheery daily posts and updates. I’ll take grumpy Kelly over no Kelly anyday.

    And you are truly lucky to have such a great husband.

  23. It’s so great to hear from you! I’ve been hoping you’re doing well and praying for you. You will be so much stronger because of this, I truly believe that. So glad Keith is taking such great care of you!! :)

  24. I’m glad you’re hanging in there, you’re a tough cookie! The not being able to put your hair in a ponytail was definitely one of the things that bothered me most too. About a week after my surgery I couldn’t take having my hair down anymore so I went to a Hair Cuttery and asked them if they would just wash it and put it up in a ponytail. It was SOO nice to get clean hair without the hassle of changing out of my clothes, putting what I called my giant arm condom over my arm, trying to shampoo with one hand, and then the hassle of getting dressed again (I became quite good at putting on a bra one-handed though!). The stylist kept asking was I sure I didn’t want a haircut- nope just a good ol’ ponytail, thanks. Feel better Kelly!

  25. For what it’s worth, I’m incredibly inspired by you right now! I honestly cannot even imagine how difficult this is for you, but the way you’re allowing the experience to teach you things – the way that you’re viewing it as humbling instead of just debilitating – is quite something. Thinking of you!

  26. I can’t imagine having to go through this. You’re such a trooper even though things keep getting thrown at you. (Allergic? Oh man!) So glad you have a sweet husband to take care of you. Hang in there, and I’m thinking of you!

  27. Oh Kelly, so sorry you are going through this! Glad you have amazing people surrounding you! Speedy recovery coming your way :)

  28. hey beautiful chica!!
    oh my goodness I am so upset I was MIA from blogland and missed telling you how amazing and strong I think you are! I cannot believe the pain you have been through (both mentally and physically!) and yet this post still remains high in spirits…which it should because you WILL pull through this tough time!
    12-weeks must seem like forever to you right now, but it the longrun it is only a tiny amount of time and before you know it you WILL be back on that tread doing those 10-milers! Please keep your chin up and rest rest rest.
    I am praying for you and definitely am sending feel-better vibes your way!
    I heart you!
    xoxo!

  29. What a painful process! I’m so sorry. Having a supportive husband is wonderful….my husband has been rolling with the pregnancy hormones that haven’t made me a barrel of laughs either.

  30. Keith is such a wonderful hubby. I’m sorry things have been so rough. I’m wishing you a super fast recovery and some more relief to the nausia.

  31. I’m sorry that you are in pain. I’m sure you are frustrated and feeling defeated at times. I’m so glad that you have the support of your family and friends. Wishing you a super speedy recovery!

  32. Allergic to the pain meds? Oh that really sucks!

    Keith is so awesome, I’m glad you have him there to help you through. It makes all the difference.

  33. Aw Kelly, I am still thinking of you. You are a trooper and I can’t even imagine what you are going through. Hang in there. You have an amazing husband and support system.

  34. Wow. You are so strong, even though you probably don’t think you are, what you’re going through is probably one of the hardest things you’ve faced in your life and you are hanging in there like a trooper. I cannot even fathom – and feel humbled just by seeing you go through this. Hang in there…and your husband wins the husband of the century award, what an amazing guy you have!! hugs.

  35. Hey lovebug, so sorry to hear about that mess. I had the same crappy reaction when I had foot surgery. Sorry if you had to go through any unnecessary pain.

    I am wishing you the quickest recovery. Love reading your updates. Keep your focus and your willpower will get you through this.

    Sending you big hugs.

  36. geez kelly, i’m really sorry to hear you’re going through such a rough time right now. i’ve been neglecting my favorite blogs these last few weeks so i apologize for not sending my well wishes sooner. you seem like a really determined and optimistic person and it’s really good to hear that you have so many wonderful people helping to make your life a little easier right now.

    hang in there girl!

  37. Kelly I hope you feel better soon! I was on pain meds last week due to the nerve in my tooth dying. It was horrible. That was the first time I was on pain meds and I did not like the experience at all. Keeping you in my prayers!

  38. Kelly, I’m so sorry you have to go through this! I know what you are going through! For the past 5 MONTHS I’ve been in “recovery” from wrist, hip, and back injury. During that time I was miserable and my hubs did the same for me as your hubs is doing for you! Super support!
    I know how challenging it can be but I’m glad you took the time to reflect on things you took for granted. For me, it puts it ALL in perspective! Just thank the Lord that you WILL get better!! Keep your chin up lovely! thinking of you!

  39. So sorry to hear of your myriad of issues. Hope you are better soon. (How the heck are you typing?). Get some sleep!

  40. Keep up the good work and get lots of rest! We’re all hoping you feel better soon!!!! (((hugs)))

  41. What a great hubby! Be thankful for him and get well soon! We miss your lists!

  42. oh my gosh kelly, i have been out of internet access and i’m so sorry to catch up on the story this late :( **major hugs** please please please let me know if i can do anything for you!!! (granola, snacks, anything!!)

  43. Thinking of you. Hope you are feeling better :)

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