Oh. My. Gosh. I don’t even know where to start! I guess first I need to say THANK YOU (from the bottom of my heart) to every single person out there who gave me such words of encouragement yesterday. I spent most of my day responding to emails that so many of you sent me with your own stories and your own words of wisdom. I was completely blown away by it all. So many of you had some AMAZING stories to share and it just made me realize that we all struggle and we all recover. Sometimes we learn more about ourselves and in the end we are better for it.
Prior to yesterday, I was sincerely thinking about not blogging anymore. Mainly because I figured that without my marathon running I didn’t have anything to offer you guys. I didn’t really see any value I could bring. My life is not all together that interesting. I don’t have kids, I don’t make gourmet recipes (although some are quite tasty ), I am not on the verge of getting married, I don’t really do anything special…I am just me. And I struggle with the concept of “me” and the fear of being ordinary. And running made me feel like I wasn’t ordinary and that I had something to offer. Something to bring to the table, something that made me somebody unique. And I figured that without that, why would anyone want to come to my blog to read simply about me.
So many of the emails I got were from readers telling me that if I needed a break then I should take it but please don’t stop the blog. I was floored! I mean really?! I didn’t realize that so many of you didn’t really come to my blog for the running…but more for me. Who I am. Apparently, I have quite the sense of humor and make you guys laugh. A few people told me that my attitude towards Mondays (and my apparent love for the day) made them smile and not dread Mondays as much. A lot of you said that my positive attitude radiated through my blog and I actually inspired quite a few of you just by being happy. And in the end, I would rather inspire someone through my positive attitude for life than by running. So again THANK YOU for the perspective. Truly.
I also am happy to say that I did contact the ING New York Marathon board and I can defer my entry to next year due to this injury. So that actually makes me very excited because now I feel like I have 15 months to be smart, rehab, and run NYC in 2011. I have a goal again and I feel grounded.
I know it is going to be hard work. I know my recovery is not going to be easy and may at some point even require surgery (although I am going to do everything in my power to avoid that!) But I know I am strong. I know I am a fighter and I know that very rarely do I ever quit. I am tenacious (right Dad?) and I will do this. I will be a better person for this and I will be okay. I also want to take the next few months to understand that without running I am still unique and special. That running is just something I do, but running is not who I am. That will take a lot of work to separate the two. But I feel like my mental healing will be just as (if not more) important than my physical healing. I tried to run today and only made it about 3 miles before the pain started. In an effort to be smart, I stopped and stretched and will be heading to Body Pump at lunch.
Thank you all. I love you all. And I truly hope that I get to meet a lot of you next month at the Healthy Living Summit in Chicago.
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